it s really hard to decide sometimes…
you have to choose really important thing that is going to effect your whole life!
anyway! we r couple friends who lived in another country for a long time… we all lived diffrent countries!
and somehow we decided to come back and settle down in our country…
some of us are working now some of us are looking for a job! well i ve been looking for a job for a long time:)
and living in another country, another culture is totally different. and generally people get use to this life very easily and they have lots of experiences! right!
ok this is my point! we all missing our life in outside! living in another country, missing those days are our only topics when we are together!
we r just talking about old days, fun days, how different and nice ( of course we had really really bad times when we were living there!) living there!
and especially i and bora i guess, whenever stay alone we were just thinking to go back!
cause , i really missed my little brothers, i missed baltimore, i missed columbia mall ( i hate shopping malls by the way!) , i missed nyc i just missed to live there…
and he is and all other friends are missing something that i cant write all in here!
and we need to decide well of course not we , i need to decide what i really want! do i really want to live there? do i really need to go to another school?
am i trying to run away from something? am i scare cuase i havent found a job yet , and it s been a long time since i come back? is it my easy way? or am i really need to do that that cuase i dont wanna say ” i am so regret right now, i should go back usa 3 years ago!!”
of course there are another reasons that we have to stay here, or may be to go but do we really need to settle down in somewhere to be prepared to life, to be successfull in our career, or can we do this wherever we want? is it easy like that?
million questions in my mind to make my life clear, and it s just getting worse whenever we get together with my friends who lived in other country.. cause we r just talking about good things and when we alone it s not that fun!
well like i said there many things that i cant write here about stay or go! but if we have a chance to do this , can we skip a may be one more year to be clear?
to say weeeeel i did it.. wasnt that good to go back / it was the best decision i ve ever made?
anyway i wrote this to one of my best friends! so we will read this may be 5 years later and talk about what we decide?
if you read this and want to give advice i ll be grateful:) cause i m kind of lost!